Awkward

                                                                     Last night I went to my company Christmas party. I opted not to take a guest and went alone. Everyone else except for Mr Former Affair had a guest. So, we ended up being seated together. Awkward.

The meal was wonderful and after a couple of glasses of wine the awkwardness wore off and we started to have a good time chatting. I hadn't drove to the party since I wanted to drink. So, my son had dropped me off. After the party I said I'd text him to come and pick me up. But, Mr Former Affair says I can drive you home. I can only say alcohol definitely affected my judgement and My mouth found itself saying yes.

The drive home was fine except for the fact he kept reminiscing about our past relationship. I didn't want to say the only thing that stuck in my mind about it was his former bitch wife. Luckily I lived close by so it was a short drive. He stopped the car a few houses away from my house. Then as I fumbling around trying to undo the seatbelt he took my face in his hands and kissed me. I was stunned unable to comprehend what was happening. I didn't kiss him back but I also couldn't get my brain functioning enough to push him away.

The next morning I kept thinking why didn't you slap him. 

The next day at work was pure awkwardness. I kept bumping into him all day long. He kept giving me smiles and saying wasn't it a good night. I'm just relieved now that I have a number of days off and then I'm working overnights. So, I won't be bumping into him for a while.