Discontented Vagina

So,in answer to a question, " How are things going between myself and K". Fantastic, apart from the non existent sex. He no longer seems interested . I don't know if hes just lost interest in sex or if he no longer wants sex with me. Either way I'm not going to bring the subject up with him anymore its a pointless exercise since it changes nothing. I've brought it up twice already in the past few months.So,I've kind of resigned myself that this will be more of a platonic relationship. A complication is the reemergence of a former FWB . I hadn't had contact with him in years, but i had a car accident before Christmas and he was the only person i could find to come and help me.I have returned the favor by doing a good deed for him but now hes suggesting we rekindle our other relationship.He asked me out for lunch today, which i have excepted. It is just lunch. However my brain is turning things over. P is an amazing lover, hes still gorgeous and funny. He is younger than me but only by 6 years. Hes not one of the young studs i did get accustomed to for a while.However i am torn. I love K and i don't want to wreck our relationship by cheating on him. On the other hand I'm getting so sexually frustrated. I want sex 2-3 times a week at minimum. Not once every couple of weeks. Anybody got a solution please share it.

It’s astounding; time is fleeting; madness takes its toll.

I saw this meme on Facebook yesterday and it made me think of Brad and Janet off The Rocky Horror Picture Show. I go every year to the movie screening at the Broadway Theater 'on Halloween. This year i took K, and we took our props ready to participate . K had never seen the movie and had no idea what to expect. We dressed up as Riff Raff and Magenta. My daughter insisted on a photo of me before i left the house to make i wasn't wearing no skanky outfit. Like i would go out dressed like that (bats eyes innocently ). We arrived early since i wanted awesome seats close to the stage so i could go up there to dance the time-warp. Which i dragged K up to do even though he had to learn it by watching everyone else. The theater was packed to capacity and everyone was in costume. K and myself enjoyed the parade of scantily clad dressed young people.K enjoyed it so much he cant wait for this years show. Maybe we can do a parade of scantily clad old people, just don't tell my daughter shh.

I had breakfast with my son today and listened as he regaled the latest news about my ex. Apparently nine of his teeth fell out overnight, the dentist said due to malnutrition and heavy drinking causing a periodontal disease. I'm told hes lost a lot of weight since i left since there is no longer anyone there to nag him to eat food. Instead alcohol has become his meal.My son said he took him out for a drink but hes so depressing to be around he felt himself being dragged down by him. It also seems my ex is convinced I'm making charges on his new credit card and getting his bills redirected to me. Neither of course are true. I don't even know what company his new credit card is with and why in gods name would i want his bills. Does he think I'm going to pay them

On a brighter note Ive just read Game Of Thrones will resume on April 14th. I'm so excited for this.This is most definitely my favorite show.
A poem by the great Robert Frost that reminds me of Game of Thrones

Fire and Ice 

BY ROBERT FROST

Some say the world will end in fire,

Some say in ice.

From what I’ve tasted of desire

I hold with those who favor fire.

But if it had to perish twice,

I think I know enough of hate

To say that for destruction ice

Is also great

And would suffice.

Right now though I'm really into The Orville Its "Star Trek"Seth MacFarlane style. It has that camp sense of humor i love. Where else can a robot amputate a crew members leg during the night in an attempt to understand how a practical joke works. After the crew member told him to be creative. The poor robot didn't comprehend that amputation wasn't funny. However the scene is hilarious to watch. .

Key To The Emerald City

The year ended in pretty much the same way that it began crappy. My ex decided he wanted my car back since it was in his name. He had never driven the car nor made any payments on it. But, i didn't earn sufficient income at the time i bought it to get the car loan in my name . So,they put it in his. It seems my kids let slip that my relationship with K was more serious that he thought and his reaction was to hit back. I was really upset at first. He phoned me at work and really caught me unawares. He wanted the car right then. But i refused and said he had to wait until the weekend.Since i had winter tires on which i didn't want to give him.Once i had time to process it and have a chat with K and some friends.I realized it was actually not a bad thing. There is still 6 years of car payments left on it, so really hes just taken that away from me. It also simplifies the divorce settlement,since i would of had to use $26,000 of it to pay off the car loan to transfer the car to my name. So,for now i have an old beater to get around and im putting the money i was paying for the car loan away to save for a new vehicle.
2019,started off well.I went to the Capitol Club with K and we listened to some bands and brought in the New Year with some new friends . We could not get a cab home though and i suggested we get a bus. K mocked my thought but humored me and was shocked when i found us a bus that stopped right at the end of our road.

I did have to work all through Christmas so didn't get to participate much with all the celebrations. I had a meeting with my bankruptcy trustee last week and was pleasantly surprised to learn i could keep the extra money i earned for working the stat holidays.. so, i decided to treat myself to a laptop and some concert tickets. So,hence my first blog-post of the year. It was horrendously tedious trying to type a post on my phone

So,right now i am feeling positive  2019 will be a better year and hopefully like Dorothy i will find the key to the Emerald City