Sunshine After The Rain

                                                           Friday night I went to yet another concert. No I won’t normally attend that many concerts in a week. It’s just the way it’s happened. This time it was Bill Bourne at Village Guitar and Amp. It was a perfect venue very nice and cozy. He was billed as blues but I found him more folk. Fabulous voice though and I did enjoy it.

Kaleidoscope Day

                                                                            I had a packed day yesterday. My daughter, son and granddaughter met me after work and we went to this Korean dessert restaurant by my work. I had a Mango Bingsoo. It was so delicious but so big I could hardly finish it. It was a good opportunity for us to talk and for me to bond with my son who hadn’t taken the break up well.                                                                              In the evening I went I went to see Harry Manx in concert. I really enjoyed it. He blends Eastern and Western music. He’s also a very amusing guy and I enjoyed his banter between the songs. I did go to the show with K but we had seats in different sections. So, I didn’t see him until after the show. They did have a half time intermission but since he didn’t bother to come look for me or text me I stayed where I was. I wasn’t familiar with the theatre and no one told me they had a bar. So, he’d gone to the bar and had drinks with his friends and forgotten about me. Asshole lol. I wasn’t bored however I was texting with a guy I knew in the audience. He saw me sat alone and presumed I had come alone. So we had a chat. Nothing better for a girls ego than to have a guy you haven’t seen in years tell you that you look beautiful and hot. Even though you know it’s just Spiel to get you naked in his bed .

One Day At A Time

                                                                       So, it’s now been three weeks since I moved out. Positive things are I’m sleeping better than I have in years. I feel relaxed and happy. I can make my own decisions and plans. Negative things are not having any cable or internet. Not having much money. Tiredness from working three jobs. Overall I think positive overcomes negative though. I haven’t once thought I made a bad decision moving out. As all my blog readers know this was six months in the making. So I’d thought long and hard about this.  It does however leave your life in limbo. Right now I feel like I’m living day to day . I would eventually though like to make more long term decisions. Although that being said I don’t know what I want anyway.           

Hands High

                                                                 Last night I went with K to see the Steve Dawson traveling show it was really good. My favourite was Steve Marriner the lead singer of Canadian blues band Monkey Junk. He was just incredible on the harmonica it gave me chills. I actually downloaded a couple of their songs onto my Spotify playlist earlier this morning. There was a wonderful Canadian blues singer as well called Ndidi Onokwulu she has an amazing voice. K is certainly in love with her. Beautiful lady with a beautiful voice.               


                       Earlier in the day yesterday I’d had a much needed catch up phone call with db. I told him I was going to give up one of my jobs and look for another one. The one I’m currently doing is consuming too much time and intruding on my social life. I also caught him up to date with what has been happening in my life. It’s so easy to tell db everything, he’s been a constant in my life for nearly 20 years and has been with me through all my trials and tribulations. Its a good feeling to know you always have a friend in your corner.   

I Want To Snuggle And Be Wrapped Up In Your Arms

            Yesterday was a busy day. I had to deal with a psychotic patient who should of been sent for assessment yesterday but our inefficient, inexperienced manager didn’t do it. So, since I was in charge yesterday once she started with her paranoia I sent her to the hospital. That relived a lot of stress for both the staff and other patients since we are not equipped to deal with her condition. She was accusing the other patients of stealing her hearing aids and glasses even though she was wearing them. Hopefully the hospital can get her onto medication and place her in a facility that is equipped to care for her.         

                                                                After work I decided to take a break from my other job which is physically exhausting. Instead I went with K to a music jam. I have met a few of K’s friends and they are very nice people. The Jam was very good I really enjoyed it. After the Jam we went to an Asian restaurant a block away to eat. We went back to his place after and ended up having an early night. I think I actually needed the sleep. I slept amazingly well, I wasn’t sure how I would feel sharing my bed with someone since I’ve spent years sleeping alone. But, I enjoy the warmth and closeness of another body close to me.      

Go Find Your Soul In The Wind

                                                            Friday evening K took me out for a ride on his motorcycle to the casino about 20 minutes out of the city. He found me a leather jacket and helmet and I was all nice and toasty. I thought I might be a little scared but I felt really safe sat behind him. I think it’s more of a scary experience for him getting in a car with me. I’d forgotten what an exhilarating experience it is ,since other than a ride around the block it’s many years since I’ve been on a motorcycle. I do however need to get my hair tucked in and put on sunglasses since all I could see was hair and the wind in my eyes was strong and hard to keep them open. We went in the casino and he treated me to a delicious supper, before we headed back to the city 

I Did It

                                                                      So much has happened where do I begin. I actually followed through and moved out. It was very traumatic and I felt dazed like I was in a car accident for a few days after. My special friend K was like a rock for me. Helping me, taking care of me . I honestly don’t think I could of done it without his help. Now I’m feeling more settled  and finally feeling happy. Happier than I’ve been in a long, long time. My only real concern is financial. Until a divorce is finalized I’m forced to be working a 12 hour day everyday of the week. So, I’m physically exhausted and lacking in time to keep up with my social activities.