I've had a busy few days. So, today I had a nice relaxing chocolate facial. It was so relaxing I fell asleep and she had to wake me up. I think she needs to come here at night and do it before I fall asleep
Friday I spent a nice day with my special friend and that was lots of fun and we also went out Sunday evening to an alternative lifestyle party. I'm not too sure what his actually thoughts were it's not for everyone. But, I thought if he planned on staying around in my life he needs to know what I get up to.
I'm not too sure he is planning on staying around , these days he seems more interested in telling me about other women he's seeing. Which is fine I'm not jealous but it does make me think if he's talking about them when we are having sex then it's highly probable he would prefer I was them. Which is not what I want, I want someone who is into me. When your about to suck someones cock and they decide that's the perfect time to tell you how great the other person is at doing it. It kind of reinforces that thought. I'm not disrespectful like that talking about my submissives pleasuring me. Anyway I had planned to ask him face to face about it tomorrow but he has family commitments this week and our usual weekend timeframe doesn't work for me because im on afternoon shifts. So,instead I will have to ponder about what my thoughts are on this. If anyone would like to give me a mans prospective on this id be interested to hear . Email is preferable topsyturvyworld1966@gmail.com
Saturday I spent the afternoon at the casino with my friend Wandie . I was really spendthrift and wouldn't put much money into the slot machine. On the plus side though I'd forgotten my friend from a story titled have you ever saved a life worked security there and he bought us lunch. I left later in the afternoon and Wandie stayed saying she would get the shuttle bus home. In the evening I went round to my alternative lifestyle friends house for supper ( that story will be on the Sexual Heaven blog).
Honestly if you have no respect for yourself why do you expect him to have respect for you. You should of got dressed, given him the finger and said fuck you asshole
ReplyDeleteYou have made a good point. Maybe I have lost respect for myself. I didn't think I had but you have brought up a valid observation
ReplyDeleteI 100% agree with what you should of done. But, don't put yourself down honey. He doesn't deserve a total babe like you. My advice kick him into touch
ReplyDeleteI know everyone's consensus is that I should walk away because he will only hurt me more. You are probably all right but I have decided to forgive him even though the probability is I'll be back here crying again in the near future
ReplyDeleteI'm not meaning to be mean you seem a sweet lady. But, there is always a but. The man has told you this is nothing more than sex for him. You seem more emotionally invested. He is never going to care about your feelings. Your choices are to either just see this man as a sex buddy and nothing more or move on if your looking for a man who will care about you.
ReplyDeleteThat's an excellent observation. Your right in your assumption that I'm emotionally invested and he isn't. I will have to give thought to how or even if I can change my way of thinking
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