You Go Girl

                                                                              I woke the other morning feeling very lonely and depressed. I realized I needed to kick myself in the butt and stop looking for excuses not to do things. I had saved a link for al anon family group meetings and saw there was one on this morning. I decided to get over my fear and go. It was actually helpful talking about his drinking and abuse. I talked to one woman who snuck the empty bottles to the recycling depot bins at 3am so the neighbors didn't see. I learnt that I don't have to put up with abusive behaviour I can be strong enough to say no. Yes he will be angry with me but I can leave the house or lock myself in a room. So, after leaving the meeting feeling somewhat empowered I did two things I've wanted to do in a long time but never had the courage to. I went to the jewellers in the mall and had my wedding ring cut off and then I phoned a counselling service and made an appointment for Monday after work. I figure if I'm going to leave him I'm going to need all the help and support I can muster.