The World Is Full Of Weeping

 

Come away, O human child. To the waters and the wild with a fairy, hand in hand. For the worlds more full of weeping than you can understand - William Butler Yeats.                                  


Saturday was one of those days where I needed to pray to god to give me strength and patience days.

 It was an exceptionally busy day at work and one of the staff working with me is very slow and needs reassurance all the time she's doing things right. A couple of other staff members snapped at her and I could see she was on the verge of tears. So, I took a deep breath and showed her yet again how to do something. I figured calming the storm would maybe help the day flow better which it did somewhat .

After work I had another bright idea. I decided to go to Costco even though my body was crying for a rest.. It was so busy it just pushed my stress level up even higher. Then I got home and discovered hubby was on a roll. He had boiled 2 dozen eggs for ive no idea what. My son said he'd boiled them for an hour. Thankfully he had kept adding water to the pot. Then I said I was going to BBQ. He decides he wants to do it.  It took him an hour to take the cover off and light the BBQ because he kept forgetting what he was going to do. Then he cuts the fat off a beef roast in the fridge to put on the BBQ and I had to hand him burgers to put on. By this time I'm physically and mentally exhausted and thinking I should of just phoned for take out.

My son gets fed up of waiting and goes out to buy Mcdonalds. Which then results in my hubby having a tantrum and sitting on the grass outside saying he's never cooking again. The burgers were burnt beyond recognition so my supper ended up being a sandwich since I was past caring about food by then.  Hubby finally came in refused to eat any food then ranted at me for not taking his side saying I was a f**cking bitch . I honestly have no clue what he's talking about nobody said a word to him. He saw my son eating McDonald's that's what started the tantrum but they never spoke to each other. I decided just to apologize since arguing is fruitless. I put a movie on Netflix and about 5 minutes later he fell asleep on the sofa. He was still asleep after the movie so I went for a bath. I use my time in the bath to cry. I get down sometimes and just wish I had someone to share my problems with. I know they can't be fixed I would just like a hug sometimes and be told your doing a great job keeping everything together. However I'm a very private person that doesn't often share personal things with people who know me. The exception it seems being  my blog readers

. So instead i go to bed put on my headphones and forget the world.