Sing No Sad Song

 

 

When I am dead , my dearest. Sing no sad songs for me ; Plant no roses at my head, nor shady Cypress tree : Be the green grass above me with showers and dewdrops wet; And if thou wilt, remember and if thou wilt forget.

I shall not see the shadows, I shall not feel the rain; I shall not hear the nightingale sing on, as if in pain: And dreaming throughout the twilight that does not rise nor set , haply I may remember. And haply may forget.

My recent illness was like a slap in the face. God saying Anna take advantage of every day you don't know how many you have left. I realized there are people in my life who are important to me. They each have a special place in my heart for their unique contribution. I also realized I had probably never told these people that their being in my life brings joy to me. I started with the most important people in my life my children. No matter what happens in my life they will always come first. Then I moved on to  relatives and finally friends. Some people actually thought I was drunk.  Others I think thought I had a hidden agenda. I found it a little sad that times had changed to the degree that we can't tell people we care about them without them thinking we want something in return.

 It was also a time to get rid of the parasites in my life. Those people who are only around when they want something. All they do is drain my positive energy and more often my bank account. They know im a kind person who would give a stranger the last penny I had if I thought they needed it more than me. But , I'm also a smart woman and I know they are lying to me . I have just chosen not to call them out on it and hope they don't treat all their other so called friends that way

She is strong, but not in the ways most people think. She loves more than she'll ever get back and she knows it yet she loves anyway - J Storm.