Hell On Earth

                                                                            I knew it was too good to last. Things were going really well until today. The ex’s sister and her husband arrived for a visit. I didn’t want to visit with her but I agreed to go see her since she was here on holiday. That went really well. It felt like i was being attacked by a pack of wolves. I don’t know nor care what he had told them. But, I endured two hours of being told I was selfish, stupid, needed sense being knocked in my head. Then being told I should smarten up and get back home and stop acting like a martyr. I was then purely responsible for wrecking the family, spoiling her holiday and not thinking of anyone but myself. I basically left feeling like shit and thinking they were probably right. Then I spent the rest of the day crying and thinking I’d be better off dead if all I’m doing is wrecking everyone’s lives.